.:.Poetry.:.

I write some, so I figured I would throw that in here too.

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Extacy

two eyes
closed to the world
in a somber sleep
intertwined in the thoughts
of an exasperating day
dreaming of a touch
soft across her chest
warm soft lips
pressed to hers
wanting to feel
and taste
something so far
something real
but its not there
can he tell when i look at him?
I want to say it so bad
but i cant
I want to hold him
all night
not let go
i want to wake up
and see his face
lit by the sun
resting on the pillow
smiling
that perfect smile
the one i see
occasionally
when i pretend he is mine
i want to tell him so bad
i love to kiss him
the way it feels
when his lips touch mine
soft and sweet
you know
his touch
its like
complete
and total
ecstasy

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Darkness

Trapped in my mind,
So far away from everything,
Scared, Searching,
I find nothing,
Nothing but my feelings.
Everything rips through me.
Like breaking glass,
I wait to be rescued,
Pulled out of this insanity,
To be held,
But that is a dream,
I have no life left,
No one can help me,
I’m stuck here,
With no way out.
If only I could feel again,
Breathe again,
Love, Be loved,
But no, I’m here,
By myself,
A dark world
With no light.

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This

i watch you smoke
with that look on your face
your tired
your eyes look into mine
i wonder what your thinking
i never ask
i figure you would tell me
if ya wanted
thats what i’ve come to love
the comfort i found
in the silence
we don’t talk much anymore
but i think you know what i’m thinking
how could you not
you asked me one night
why do you look at me like that
you know
i don’t need to answer
some things ARE
better left unsaid
we both know that
i know it will never amount
to more than this
but THIS
is awesome
and i wish
i could make time stand still
just for those moments
when you look at me like this

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Empty

it has taken me a while..
but it has come to this..
empty inside..
alone and dismissed..
echoing heartache..
what can i say..
i still miss you in too many ways..
i remember that touch..
when we were alone..
the thought of you..
making me moan..
i feel like a fool ..
these days i always do..
how i wanted you..
you already knew..
lies and smiles..
hidden tears…
i will never tell the truth..
not in a 1000 yrs..
ill let it play out..
and just die away..
thats what dreams do..
atleast thats what i say..
burdened with this wieght..
of you on my hips..
i long to feel it..
just not like this..
a one time thing..
a fling or maybe two..
but saying i love you..
well that will never do..

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Distress

there is an anguish
all around me
i feel something
it all surrounds me
my skin is burning
my heart is pounding
theres nothing there
theres no one here
im scream out loud
and it awakens my fears
my white flag is raised
my soul exposed
i reach to heaven
i stretch and yearn
where is my god
where has she gone
i scream and pray
my spirit grieves
i need a taste
upon my lips
an ounce of comfort
to quench my thirst

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RP

I wish I could express
The stories I hide
I stumble over words
Awkward rhymes
And silent prose
Expressing my confusion
Distractions uprooted
Thrown on the floor
And I trip
And choke
I feel this straight jacket
Wrapped around my face
I feel displaced
From the world
And humanity
If words were a dance
I’d have two left pens
So I just lay here
And let you pretend
I sip from your cup
You feed me your script
I play the part
And everyone wins

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Cancer

You are like a cancer
You are part of me
You have grown on me
In me
You have charged through me
Like an army
Shattered pieces of me.
I push you back and fight you
I hold you down
In the back of me
Alone.
Intoxication
A remedy of self help
Will make me strong.
And I will dredge through
Till I forget
And one day
When I least expect
You will appear
And I will smile
Cause
What is life
Without a good fight?

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Torture

Your cold distant smile…
I wish I could see through it.
You were a stranger in my arms
But I felt comfortable.
We never shared anything more
Than a physical bond.
A simillar taste in seduction.
I craved your taste on my lips
More than I wanted air in my lungs.
I wanted nothing more
Than to hear you say hello.
Hear a knock on my door.
See you when I woke up.
I am a liar.
I wanted more.
But am a coward.
I’ve never had the strength
To take what I wanted.
I could never look at you
And tell you how I felt.
I could scream it to you
But why?
You were there.
In your life.
I sat back and watched.
Like a movie.
The reels of film
Scattered across my floor.
Occasionally I would pick up parts
Fantasize that I was somewhere
In there.
With you.
But in reallity
I didn’t fit.
So I walked away.
I left my feelings
And my emotions.
I left part of me.
People came by
And made the emptiness tolerable
They tore at my flesh
And pounded on my bones
Like wolves feeding on fresh meat.
And like this
I live.
I close my eyes.
I see your face.
I wake up in the morning
And I smile
Briefly.
Then the world falls back on top of me
Dreams are torture.

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Thief of the night

Intoxicated and lethargic
Passed out on your couch
you finally found it
Your perfect match
So you ate it up
Like you’d die without it
You had to taste it
You couldn’t deny it
A few minutes of pleasure
At the price of ones pain
The forbidden fruit
You took without shame
The smell of your flesh
And the way it felt
Just a few of the things
I can never forget